Welcome to Miserablebliss

Hi! Welcome! Bonjour! Salut!

This domain is a fresh start for me. Perhaps we’ve met before? I’m not a stranger to blogging – to writing my thoughts, feelings and happenings in a public place for other people to read. In fact, I started blogging (though it wasn’t called blogging back then) during my first year of university (in 1993 – 12 yeas ago!) and, since then, the only thing that’s changed is where I store the results. I had a domain before this, where I wrote for nearly a decade, and I closed it down in June of 2005 for a variety of reasons that are incredibly boring.

In the past you could find my writing on my old domain, as well as on blogspot, myspace, livejournal.. One place for public thoughts, one for private, one for x-rated thoughts, one for everything else. It’s been chaotic and difficult to manage – who knows about this one? what about that one? – and I started to feel as though I was dividing myself up into a thousand pieces, none of which painted the true picture. At the same time, it was important to me to keep certain things from certain people: to ensure my boss didn’t find my work ranting, my ex-husband didn’t find my divorce-related ramblings and my family didn’t read about my sex-capades.

In the past year, a lot of things have changed in my life. I dropped out of the corporate world in order to start my own company. I’ve been trying to get my body in better shape. I turned 30 years old. I divorced my ex after three years of seperation. I was engaged to and then married my amazing husband. There have been negatives, too, of course – like losing a great deal of money in that divorce, the death of my best friend, the stress and angst of the court proceedings. And there’s been ‘life’ stuff, too.

With all of those changes, it seemed like the right time to move to a new domain (hello!) and to start writing more openly, honestly and as uncensored(ly) as my brain will allow me to. I want to talk openly about my marriage, about my business, about getting in shape and being 30 (and 31, 32, 33..) I make no promises to be funny or interesting or anything else, nor do I promise daily updates or long stories or photo entries. It is what it is, when it is.

Why “miserable bliss”? Because that’s what life is – at least, the way it should be. One part miserable, one part bliss, interchanged as the universe sees fit. Plus, it suits my personality of being happy as a clam and miserable as a .. uhh, miserable person within any 24 hour span. I first heard it in a Sum41 song and thought it was a perfect phrase. Miserable Bliss.

If you’re offended by profanity or bluntness, overt sexuality or depressed monologues, I apologize now. This is who I am, and I rather like me at this point in my life. You can feel free to link to my domain – though I’d appreciate it if you’d leave off my real name, just to help me stay somewhat anonymous from the search engines. Please leave comments – say what you’re thinking, start a dialogue, inspire me to write on a topic. I want to hear from you. You can even do it by email.

It doesn’t seem right to end this post without a disclaimer, so here it is: don’t steal my stuff, don’t be an asshole, and don’t take anything personally.

Come to think of it, those are pretty good rules for life.