Thanks.

31 October 05 | 3 comments

I’m a mess, and I admit it freely and openly. But I’m a mess with a doctor’s appointment tomorrow morning – thanks to my husband who wouldn’t take “no” for an answer when they told him they couldn’t fit me in.

We spent a few hours at the beach today, collecting rocks and beach-glass and watching the ladybugs hang out. It felt nice to be outside; the fresh air and the waves were good company.

I went to SnB last night, and I’m going to knitting class tonight – mostly because I’m afraid that if I don’t, I’ll never leave the house again. And, um, yeah. I’m not quite prepared for that level of crazy quite yet. I need to pick up a few (hundred) cats, first. Heh. But I’m not looking forward to it, really. It’s a distraction.

I’ve been reading up on panic disorder, and it seems completely and utterly bang on. At least for the past few days. It sucks – big – that I was feeling so very good for so very long, no panic, no depression, great mood, and… now this.

I’ll be okay. I’m determined. ;) And thanks for all your emails and comments, too. *smooch*

  1. FlippyO’s avatar

    FlippyO on 31 October 05 at 6:22 pm

    Yeah, but you’re a cool “mess”. :) (and really, in the blogosphere, aren’t most of us?) And good for Coffee for making them squeeze you in. I imagine an ER visit helps persuade the less than persuadable.

    Okay, now I’m off to yet another doctor’s appointment. I feel your pain, albeit in a slightly different manner.

    Oh, I miss the beach. Living in the desert has its perks (mmm, warmth), but I miss living in Northern California…and looking out my front window, watching big waves unexpectedly splash people who were gazing at the water all peacefully ‘n’ stuff. Hmm, I guess you had to be there. Funny stuff though.

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  2. Lena’s avatar

    Lena on 31 October 05 at 7:17 pm

    Oohhh you are not a mess. Good for Coffee for insisting on the Dr’s appointment. Then you and I can go to yoga class together to help you de-stress.

    xo

    Lena

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  3. Chris’s avatar

    Chris on 31 October 05 at 7:41 pm

    Good luck in your appointment tomorrow. If you find out you are struggling with anxiety and want to talk I am a great listener and have had my own trips to the emerg so the compassion is there, too.

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